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Hina Hinotori
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はじめまして。
火ノ鳥ひなと申します。
アイヌと大和のハーフです。

平成二年九月二十九日
北海道渡島支庁函館市で生まれました
病弱な箱入り娘です。
友達いない暦=年齢。

ポケモンが大好きです。
人間を描くことは苦手なんですので主に動物系並びに(動物に基づくデザインした)ポケモンの絵を投稿して行く予定です。
画力が足りませんので修行しなきゃ!


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★科目:数学

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Hina-chan Discusses: George Weinburg

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 29, 2017, 9:28 PM


Source is taken from here: sinrizm.blog.fc2.com/blog-entr…

It's the blog I've been reading recently to discover more about myself. It's in Japanese though so I think I'll make a rough translation of some of the key points mentioned. Weinburg is the psychologist who coined the term "homophobia". He died recently on the 20th of March.

I started on the 4th radio session and the author mentioned Weinburg's quote:

"People's actions reinforces the intentions behind them."

He then gives two examples. If I hate A, and then I say nasty things behind their backs, what it reinfoces is the hate behind those words, and I hate A even more. Even if starts out with only a wee bit of dislike, through the reinforcements it snowballs out of control really quickly. If I peek at my partner's phone because I'm suspecting that they're unfaithful (because most people are unfaithful to a certain degree), then what the peeking reinforces is the suspicion and I become suspicious of them even more. Eventually I wouldn't trust anything my partner says anymore.

Those with an infeirority complex (such as myself) often have the desire to surpass others. In a workplace they may work super hard to super hard to accomplish that goal. But the harder they work the harder it serves to reinforce their feeling of inferiority. That's why whether it's in relationship or workplace, it's nearly impossible to break free of this vicious cycle. The harder they work the more pain they suffer without even realizing it. No amount of hard work or success can make the inferiority go away, because all that ever accomplish is to further reinforce the inferiority complex. In Weinburg's book there's another example which goes as follows:

An Italian girl is dating and American boy. The American guy comes from a good household and basically has a good life and whatnot. The Italian girl thought that if he knew about her Italian background she might get dumped, so she lies about herself. One day, the American guy and the Italian girl, plus one of his friends went to dinner together. Although it was revealed much later on in the story that the Ameircan guy knew about his girlfriend being Italian, but his friend didn't know, so he (the friend) went on to rant about how much he hated Italians while they're having dinner. The girl didn't react to it in any way, but she suspected that his boyfriend and the other guy are in cahoots and they're trying to make her confess about being Italian, all without any justification to it.

Weinburg says that in the above example, the Italian girl's groundless suspicion is simply the result of this aforementioned reinforcement. The intention is her fear of being dumped if her boyfriend finds out her Italian background. The more she hides, the more she fears. The more she fears, the more she becomes critical towards her boyfriend. The more she's critical towards him, the more she suspects him of being unfaithful to her. In the end their relationship became a complete disaster. The more you try to make others accept you by hiding your weaknesses, the more you'll lose confidence in yourself. The key point is, the reason you don't love yourself as you are, is you don't want to love yourself. People with this mentality thinks they cam become confident by becoming stronger. The problem with the Italian girl in this story is that she doesn't want to love herself, so needless to say wanting marriage from that is just flat-out absurd.

Those who have pets would understand that when you first get a pet doge or cat, and you think it's cute. The more you take care of your pet the more likeable it becomes. Those who have a hobby starts out as an interest in their otherwise boring life, and gradually become attached to it. Those who have a favorite baseball team don't really have any particular likes about their team but as they watch more and more games they become fans of their team. So in this sense this reinfoecement can also be used for positive purposes as well, and the speaker talks about his own experience with basketball and how he started playing in grade 7 and became completely nucking futs about it by grade 8.

Another concept similar is also quoted by Weinburg:

"The choices we make justifiy our beliefs behind them."

The problem with the Italian girl is that she had the choice to just dismiss the other guy's remarks as something purely accidental, but she chose to be paranoid about it which reinforces her belief that being Italian is shite. In the same vein, the only way to weaken our faulty perspectives is to not to make the choice. The whole inferiority complex is a perspective we look at ourselves with, so it too can be weakened. If I write on my profile that I'm a shite person, then it only serves to justify my belief that I'm shite. If I believe that all men are scary, and I choose not to get married, and the choice justifies my belief that all men are bastards. If I have the choice to approve or criticize others and I criticise them, the choice strengthens the belief that it feels good to criticize them.

So what the speaker tells us is that we either make ourselves, or we break ourselves. In order to make the right choice we have to be fully conscious and aware of the fact that when we're making choices and acting on them we're reinforcing our beliefs and intentions. That's the key to break out of the vicious cycles such as the inferiority complex.

Next time I'm going to talk about choices and all that crap and what you can change VS what you cannot. It's quite an interesting topic and I find it really helpful so that's why I'm wasting my valuable time to translate all that. Hope you won't find my journals annoying.

  • Listening to: ReichTunes
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  • Drinking: Reich-Cola

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Hina-chan Discusses: George Weinburg

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 29, 2017, 9:28 PM


Source is taken from here: sinrizm.blog.fc2.com/blog-entr…

It's the blog I've been reading recently to discover more about myself. It's in Japanese though so I think I'll make a rough translation of some of the key points mentioned. Weinburg is the psychologist who coined the term "homophobia". He died recently on the 20th of March.

I started on the 4th radio session and the author mentioned Weinburg's quote:

"People's actions reinforces the intentions behind them."

He then gives two examples. If I hate A, and then I say nasty things behind their backs, what it reinfoces is the hate behind those words, and I hate A even more. Even if starts out with only a wee bit of dislike, through the reinforcements it snowballs out of control really quickly. If I peek at my partner's phone because I'm suspecting that they're unfaithful (because most people are unfaithful to a certain degree), then what the peeking reinforces is the suspicion and I become suspicious of them even more. Eventually I wouldn't trust anything my partner says anymore.

Those with an infeirority complex (such as myself) often have the desire to surpass others. In a workplace they may work super hard to super hard to accomplish that goal. But the harder they work the harder it serves to reinforce their feeling of inferiority. That's why whether it's in relationship or workplace, it's nearly impossible to break free of this vicious cycle. The harder they work the more pain they suffer without even realizing it. No amount of hard work or success can make the inferiority go away, because all that ever accomplish is to further reinforce the inferiority complex. In Weinburg's book there's another example which goes as follows:

An Italian girl is dating and American boy. The American guy comes from a good household and basically has a good life and whatnot. The Italian girl thought that if he knew about her Italian background she might get dumped, so she lies about herself. One day, the American guy and the Italian girl, plus one of his friends went to dinner together. Although it was revealed much later on in the story that the Ameircan guy knew about his girlfriend being Italian, but his friend didn't know, so he (the friend) went on to rant about how much he hated Italians while they're having dinner. The girl didn't react to it in any way, but she suspected that his boyfriend and the other guy are in cahoots and they're trying to make her confess about being Italian, all without any justification to it.

Weinburg says that in the above example, the Italian girl's groundless suspicion is simply the result of this aforementioned reinforcement. The intention is her fear of being dumped if her boyfriend finds out her Italian background. The more she hides, the more she fears. The more she fears, the more she becomes critical towards her boyfriend. The more she's critical towards him, the more she suspects him of being unfaithful to her. In the end their relationship became a complete disaster. The more you try to make others accept you by hiding your weaknesses, the more you'll lose confidence in yourself. The key point is, the reason you don't love yourself as you are, is you don't want to love yourself. People with this mentality thinks they cam become confident by becoming stronger. The problem with the Italian girl in this story is that she doesn't want to love herself, so needless to say wanting marriage from that is just flat-out absurd.

Those who have pets would understand that when you first get a pet doge or cat, and you think it's cute. The more you take care of your pet the more likeable it becomes. Those who have a hobby starts out as an interest in their otherwise boring life, and gradually become attached to it. Those who have a favorite baseball team don't really have any particular likes about their team but as they watch more and more games they become fans of their team. So in this sense this reinfoecement can also be used for positive purposes as well, and the speaker talks about his own experience with basketball and how he started playing in grade 7 and became completely nucking futs about it by grade 8.

Another concept similar is also quoted by Weinburg:

"The choices we make justifiy our beliefs behind them."

The problem with the Italian girl is that she had the choice to just dismiss the other guy's remarks as something purely accidental, but she chose to be paranoid about it which reinforces her belief that being Italian is shite. In the same vein, the only way to weaken our faulty perspectives is to not to make the choice. The whole inferiority complex is a perspective we look at ourselves with, so it too can be weakened. If I write on my profile that I'm a shite person, then it only serves to justify my belief that I'm shite. If I believe that all men are scary, and I choose not to get married, and the choice justifies my belief that all men are bastards. If I have the choice to approve or criticize others and I criticise them, the choice strengthens the belief that it feels good to criticize them.

So what the speaker tells us is that we either make ourselves, or we break ourselves. In order to make the right choice we have to be fully conscious and aware of the fact that when we're making choices and acting on them we're reinforcing our beliefs and intentions. That's the key to break out of the vicious cycles such as the inferiority complex.

Next time I'm going to talk about choices and all that crap and what you can change VS what you cannot. It's quite an interesting topic and I find it really helpful so that's why I'm wasting my valuable time to translate all that. Hope you won't find my journals annoying.

  • Listening to: ReichTunes
  • Reading: The Friedrichstrabe Journal
  • Watching: Reich News Network
  • Playing: Bunker Run
  • Eating: Luft-Waffles
  • Drinking: Reich-Cola
sinrizm.blog.fc2.com/
I'm gonna save this blog for later. It's really helpful to me.
JewelPet Font Flat Extended Latin
Hey everybird, I've made a simple flat version of the JewelPet font based on JewelPet Tinkle. I've changed a few things like making the numbers Arabic numerals instead of Roman and a few minor changes to the alphabet.

Press download for the TrueType font. Anybird can use this for free!

The text above is taken from the Hitler rants scene.

:icongunscheplz::iconsaysplz:Fegelein just changed the subtitles to an alien language. Hope it isn't too hard to read.
:icondownfallhitlerplz::iconsaysplz:Bring me that imbecile Fegelein!
:iconfegelcineplex::iconsaysplz:Fegelein! Fegelein! Fegelein!!!1!

Edit:
Added extended Latin letters. Now you can read and type French, Mexican and German without problems!
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How being on Twitter Made Me More Confident

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 24, 2017, 5:30 AM


Hello everybird. I'm here to rant about share my thoughts and feelings again. If you don't like, don't read, please.

Just a quick recap. I registered for twitter in the year 2008, yes, 2008, and I haven't been on it for 8 whole years until I recently started to become more active starting January this year. Part of the reason isn't really because I don't want to socialize with my friends in Japan. They're great but there are actually deeper reasons for shutting my twitter down for so long, so let me discuss a few of them that I think matter to me the most.

Number one, I always felt I'm inadequate at processing feelings. I was diagnosed of autism at a very young age, but the diagnosis was somehow lifted after a long-overdue re-assessment when I graduated high school. But that's all water under the bridge now. I wasn't completely unable to socialize, I just lack experience so the best way is to just join the flock and fly over to where all the birds go, pick up the bird seeds and fling myself with the big slingshot like everybird else. I used to believe that it's OK to just live my life like a hikikomori (that's Japanese for shut-in) but there's much more to this world than my limited perspective on life. So I decided to just follow a whole bunch of people and observe what they do and try to imitate them even if I don't understand them at first. There's no shortcut. It's all about practice. The reason I'm so socially awkward is because I never had the practice when I was young, so in a way I'm making up for all those lost years, which is fair enough.

Number two, I worry a lot. Like seriously, a lot. I restarted my Twitter "career" when Hinausa (not the one on DA, mind you. I made the mistake of accidentally mentioning her last time) introduced me to Twitter and we shared our bitter past together. In case you didn't know, I talked about her in one of my previous journals and she's the one I did the art trades with recently. She ended up in hospital again and is still stuck there, knocked half-dead by a dozen and a half medications and she still wants to hurt herself constantly. The only reason she's in the psych ward and not me was that I just happened to have a (slightly) better set of genes and I grew up in Canada instead of Japan. In a nutshell, I just got lucky. Every morning I turn on Twitter and the first thing I see are her tweets complaining about how helpless she is and how much pain she's in and how all the medications made her all zombie-like and how she just wishes to be dead right now. Then I go do whatever business I'm supposed to be doing for the rest of the day. All of a sudden I realize that nothing, and I mean absolutely flocking nothing that I ever worry about or get pissed off about in my life is going to compare to that level of pain and misery. Yeah I was complaining about how crappy my soldering job was on my graphics coprocessor that the computer crashes all the time and how I won't be able to stream without it overheating. I can bet my cloaca on it that if I give her my beat-up PC (and her hospital somehow allows the use of them), she'd be much more happier than she is right now even if it overheats from time to time. On the other talon, I can also bet that even if my dad just bought me a brand new gaming PC with much better graphics and faster and all that crappers I'd still be unhappy. Point is, my worries are absolutely absurd. I don't mean to make myself feel better by comparing against those in a much more miserable state, but that's just how ironic and retarded even, my worries were.

Number three, my fear of unknown. I can call it a phobia even, no joke. I always thought how brave I was at everything and how I'm not afraid of failing. The truth is, I wasn't afraid of failing at all. What I was truly afraid of was the unknown and the unpredictable. I'd be glad to empty my wallet if those video game arcades still exists because when I was a hatchling I frequented those arcades, yet I never ever want to go to a casino and spend the same amount of money in my adult life. I remember the trip to Las Vegas a few years ago and everybird was playing slots and I just sat there, thinking it was pointless to rely on luck to win at the reels. What I failed to realize was the the point was not to win but just to have fun. If I have to throw away my money I might as well enjoy ever single femtosecond of it. Now how does that relate to Twitter you may ask? I was really afraid of making mistakes when I'm talking to others. If I want to compliment somebird for their art, the first thing that comes to my mind was "what if my reply was annoying?", then I imagine myself as that artist and think "if I'm bothered by this unknown person I'd probably call her out for being annoying.", and then I think "what if they summon their personal army and start a flame war I'd never be able to survive that", then in the end I just chose not to say anything at all. But what's the worse thing that can really happen? Probably I'll just get ignored. No harm being done. What's actually more scary is that in a sense I feel that failing to communicate is better than having a chance to successfully socialize with others, because success lies in the unknown, which I fear the most, but I can make sure that I fail by simply staying silent. This fear of the unknown had made failure so much more comfortable to me than having an oppotunity at success, and you can see how paralyzing it is!

Number four, I have a really bad inferiority complex. No matter how crappy somebird's art is, I always felt that they have better art than me. It's not just about art but since DA is pretty much my only outlet that allows me to post those long journals I might as well just use art as an example so we're all on the same page here. But the truth is, the whole realm of art and a lot of other things in our life are subjective for the most part. Let's say that there's somebird that I absolutely worship thinking that even their mistakes are part of their perfection. What I don't see is their hardships and things that they can't share publicly on Twitter (unless you're talking about Donald Trump). We all eat and drink and piss and shit, and just because you don't see other peoples in the washroom stalls doesn't mean they don't piss and shit (actually if you do then you have a much more serious problem going on LOL). We look at ourselves from the inside and sees so much imperfection in ourselves, but we can only look at others from the outside and we only see an edited version of their fim reel of life which only features the "nice" parts and segments that the society somehow promotes way much more than the so-called "shameful" details on our weaknesses and failures. This is more of a leap of faith than anything else, to believe that what you suffer and what you consider inferior is shared between you and the rest of the world and you haven't been singled out to suffer this curse alone. This helped me a lot to open up and be more helpful and considerate than angry and bitter all the time.

Numver five, I regret a lot. I used to think that no matter which choice I pick I'd always regret it later. I regret missing out on all the stuffs for 8 years. If I've been active for the past 8 years I'd still regret all the stupid things I've said and done, given how immature I was back in the day. It just seems that I can never escape regret. In a sense, my free will had become a curse, and there's no way out. But there is a way out. The secret is that regret, in itself, is a choice. I can choose not to regret that I missed out on the 8 years and if (Arceus forbid) I was acting like a LOLcow during the 8 years I'd be able to learn from all my missed steaks (pun intended) given the new perspective I have on everything now. There are things that get in our way that we can't control, but what we can control is our reponse to it. A few years ago the oil and gas market crashed and I just happened to be one of the unlucky graduates from petrochemical engineering. Sure, I can regret that I never did any research in renewable energy before it took over the needs for oil and gas, but I now realized that renewable energy is the way to go nowadays. Renewable energy got in the way of petrochemical development, but it opened up so many more new opportunities to do research on. Moral of the story is: What gets in the way, becomes the way.

Well, I think that's all I have to share for now. If you made this this far and understood everything I pointed out, I think you deserve a medal, seriously.

  • Listening to: ReichTunes
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happy late valentines day!
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Did you know Perman? I know the series exists, so as Doraemon. They're both made by Fujiko Fujio.
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こんにちは!
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{Happy Year of the Angry Chickens.}
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Your art is so cute!
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Hey Hina~
*re-watches you because my watchlist got emptied a while ago*
How are you? :3
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I really love your art. The style is very cute and innocent! :)
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Dreameon: Hey... *sighs and hugs you*
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